There is a refreshing clarity that comes with hindsight. Even the most gruelling task feels lighter once you reach its end.
I have had countless new experiences in 2018, many of which a former version of me wouldn’t have had the courage to pursue. I regret nothing about my sabbatical and I have learned so much by doing many things that terrified me.
My first year as a freelance creative since working as a full-time music teacher was quite a risk. My livelihood was dependant on securing several reliable income streams. It was sporadic and required careful budgeting but it was all feasible.
The most rewarding part was being able to plan my day according to my own desires and interests. I was being compensated for living a creative life.
It was an ambitious feat to try to live off creative pursuits alone but I needed to take responsibility for the life that I wanted to live. I didn’t care so much about a job title as I cared about living a meaningful and enriching life.
The best part is that I will continue to work freelance next year on some very exciting projects. People told me I was crazy for resigning from a permanent position but I think clinging to such things in a world of impermanence is crazier.
The many inspiring people whom I have met in 2018 have reinvigorated my desire to aim for even bigger things in 2019.
My main focus will be to develop multiple skills and build character. I used to think that reputation mattered but reputation is how others perceive you and I have no control over that; my character is who I am and that matters greatly.
My late grandmother taught me so much about unconditional love and I want to share that with others; I want to be remembered for my kindness and for my heart not for titles, possessions or accolades.
Jordan B. Peterson articulated it best in 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos, “The better ambitions have to do with the development of character and ability, rather than status and power. Status you can lose. You carry character with you wherever you go, and it allows you to prevail against adversity.”
So here’s to another year of trying a plethora of new things and meeting more like-minded artistic people. Thank you to everyone who has made 2018 such an incredible year for me.
